When was the last post?

So I see I'm not just no good at this blogging business.... but I ain't any good at keeping promises to myself either!

I can see the promise I made to myself all the way back in October last year and I really haven't touched this blog since then. Disgraceful.

I cannot believe that in a blink of an eye, 8 months have passed since then. How ridiculous is that?!

Well... I don't have much to say really...

I've been good with my physical activities... going to gym as semi-regularly as I can, and recenetly taking up bikram yoga, which is tough as, but makes you feel so so SOOOO darn good afterwards that I think I might have to also do this semi-regularly. If only my budget would allow for more such luxurious self-torture exercises. I would definitely have my hands raised to do them. Cos I'm just silly like that.

Anyhoos... what made me come back here was a surprise phone call from a somebody that I hadn't expected a phone call from. Actually, to call this person a somebody would make them sound more important than they really are... no, this person is really no longer a significant part of my life but I got a call from this... insignificant person and I'm not really sure how I should be reacting.

Here's the thing, Insignificant Person actually called me about 4 months ago after about 3 years of obscurity... basically, IP disappeared from my life, just *poof* and gone. Nothing. No news, no calls, no updates, nada. Zip.

Then suddenly, calls me out of the blue and chats as if it were nothing, as if we had only just spoken last week, as if we were still the good friends that we once were. Well, I'm sorry IP. Things just don't work like that in my world.

In my world, it would be polite and kind of you to provide some sort of explanation as to why you just suddenly stopped all communication with me. It would be helpful if you provided explanation as to why you stopped calling. And then, why out of the blue did you just decide to pick up the phone and want to have a chat with me?

Did you want to gloat? About your new life?
Curiousity or stupidity got the better of me and I let you talk... admittedly, I did miss you a tonne. Missed you so much that it almost felt like home when I heard your voice.
Come to think of it, it was just stupidity because stupidly I let you make me feel like second best... no wait, I don't think I ever really even felt second best in your world. At best, I was probably a filler... there was a crack or a space somewhere in your day and I just filled it so you wouldn't be bored. I got away from all of that, and in less than a minute you made me feel like a space-filler all over again. I need to remind myself how shit that makes me feel and I should stop letting you do that to me.

Anyhoos, so that's the story, IP called me about 4mths ago and said we should catch up one day... for lunch... umm, ah-huh, lunch... right. I'm still not even worthy of any other time in your life. Just a casual lunch...

So, yeah, catch up, lunch says IP.... and I never expected anything from that. But lo and behold, 4mths later IP calls again... not really sure they're really taking up the chance for lunch or catch up but I'm glad I missed the call.

Yes. I missed the call.The gladness in my heart is overwhelming. I feel light and slightly smug. Of course, I didn't intentionally miss the call, but had I heard the phone ring, there is no doubt in my mind that I would've answered it. But I'm glad I didn't.

So... Insignificant Person, I am slowly bit by bit, getting away from your reaches, and each time it becomes easier...